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[16 Jan 2004|08:39am] |
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yeah... i woke up @ 5:30 am to find my mom wasnt up yet.. wow... so i went back to sleep and was woken up 10 min later (5:40) by briana when she goes " do we have school or not" so i call the bus station... no answer.... the phones off the hook... i go to cancellations.. it says:
THE CLARKSTOWN SCHOOLS WILL OPERATE ON A NORMAL SCHEDULE TODAY, FRIDAY, THE 16TH. ANY STUDENTS WHO ARE 'WALKERS' WILL BE ALLOWED TO BOARD AT ANY BUS STOPS FOR THEIR SCHOOLS TODAY AND RIDE TO SCHOOL. THEY WILL SIMILARLY BE ALLOWED TO RIDE HOME ON BUSES WHICH STOP NEAR THEIR NEIGHBORHOODS. PLEASE BE SURE TO BUNDLE UP IN LAYERED CLOTHING. WE HOPE THAT ALL STUDENTS WILL ATTEND TODAY, BUT ARE RESPECTFUL OF ANY PARENT DETERMINATIONS TO KEEP A CHILD AT HOME
WTF is that.... so school is optional???? so i show this and tell my mom... and everyone calls and i tell them the same thing that theres school but its... uhh... it looks like its optional.... and my mom informs me that "she doesnt care... im going" so after arguing i throw on clothes.... black sweats and FIVE layers of clothes (white l/s shirt... red l/s shirt... red fleece... my syracuse sweatshirt.... with my northface on top of that.. AND a winter jacket plus gloves a scarf and a hat...) and i angrily go into her car and she drives me in.. so i dont miss a gym class... i walk in.. and theres literally 5 ppl there... i mean afew more ppl started comin but even our gym teacher didnt show up for work... which shows me that we shouldnt be there cuz cmon its a GYM TEACHER kids! so after arguing with my mom on saras phone (haha ily) i realize that my phone was in my pocket the entire time lol hehehe (blondeee) and she tells me she'll decide if shes pickin me up early... so meantime i forge a note to get outa school.. heheh.. and i get my early dismissal pass.. and she calls me in the hall to tell me to go to class... and at this point im like its pointless bc none of my teachersa re here (well except for 1 or 2) and i convince her to pick me up.. and i get bitched at by 3 teachers in the hall about using my phone... so yeah sorry brit about not bein in latin with u lol. and yeah everyones leaving cuz its optional.. and no one wants to be @ north and walk outside from class to class. so i come home and my sisters "sick" and im arguing with her but its ok cuz i dont like her lol so now im upstairs and im chillin out and hten im gonna study for midterms... i have to tutor tonight ughh... but its ok cuz im not allowed out anyway tonight after fighting with my mom.. well, i hope to see the p-unit tomorrow... much <333
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[15 Jan 2004|04:44pm] |
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well yeah after stayin up til 1 am i was prayin for a delay or a snowday today.. and *oo la la ms meteorologist was right about the snoww.. i said a snow day heheeee* so yeah i got up after findin out school was closed.. and put it on my away and went back to sleep til like 9... then i went ot my ocmputer and saw all these ims like "thanks for puttin that on ur away.... ahh no school!!... thx bc cancellations sux...etc" stuff like that it made me feel all jesus-like.... jews for jill ::scoree:: idk.. felt liek sayin that.. so today i started suchdogg (suchys) essay.. i did his scaffolding and then 1/3 of my essay.. but its due the 20th so i got a while lol.. then i was forced to start studyin for midterms by the nazi-mode midterm mother... and i started studyin for history... cuz i dont have my spanish n latin books so ic ant study for that. lol. thats my only reason for *wanting* school tomorrow just so i can get my books.. then we all can go home :) cuz my midterms for those classes are nextttttt week during class... which sucks!
well yeah now im bored and im planning my sweet 16 evne tho its months away *hehe dorrrrk* but its gonna be siiiicK wordd.
yeah my predictions for tomorrow: school is a definite.. we might have a shot at a delay... but thats it. unless some sort of miracle happens. yeah i got to shovel snow today.. fuuuun. but i dont live by anyone really except for like cheryl and lisa and jon n ppl but they live like 2 blocks away.. i live nextdoor to cheryl but i dont think shed appreciate playin in the snow like iw ould lol so i had no one to play with me in the snow :( (awwwww insert sympathy here) hehe. but its okay. i basically just threw snow around lol. this weekend = 3 day weekend woo woo!!! and then its just one more week b4 midterms and my midterm sched SUCKSSSSSS.
yeah i have to tutor tomorrow night which sucks cuz i dont get outta it til like 8. and plus im going ot be forced to study for midterms so i have to sneak out a window or somethin to see the pimp unit and to see jax. ill try my best guys. (FLY JILL FLY hahah tom) yeah... my midterm sched:
1/21- history thematic
1/21- spanish orals (hehehe orrrrallsss)
1/22- latin in class
1/23- latin in class
1/26- eng math
1/27- Eng
1/28- History, Chem
1/29- Spanish
oyyy..... yeah the only day i have off is friday but i get outta spanish @ 12noon.... so ican chill afte that. ok kids ill catch u laterrrr <333
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| can it be true tell me can this be real? |
[14 Jan 2004|02:38pm] |
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can it be?? have all the problems.... been basically....solved or ended? hmm...well sort of. lol these past two days have been *eventful*... yesterday court jax and aviva made me and dani crack up in the middle of chem with their signs through the windows haahahhah hashim was like uhhhhhh wtf lol. :) (insert cracking up here) oh yes and the sucking up to ms ast has continued hahah but its all good if it brings up my grade ill do anything lol. so kids.. do u think we have school tomorrow? if we do then its deff got to bea 2-hour delay.... and if ur gonna call em to find out.. bc im smart and i call the bus station... :) itllbe on my voicemail bc my cell wont be on bc kids im gonna go back to sleep lol.. not goin through thirty-seven phone calls like last time. but its all good. by far the funniest thing of the day: we're talking about africa and slaves in history and vinnie makes some comment about africa and then suchy goes ohh well oen of my freshman from my first period class would greatly argue and disagree with u on that one... and vinnies like who is it.. and suchy goes BEATRICE!! and it takes a minute for this name to connect in my mind and about a minute later i jump back 20 feet and screaM OMG BEEAATTTRIIIIIICEEEEE! and suchy cracks up along with everyone else at my reaction and suchys like you know her! everyone seems to knonw her.. shes the one freshman everyone knows even just by her first name.. and i was IN TEARS.. cuz he just went on and on and everyone was lookin at teachother and me like wtf whos beatrice... ooohh man.. MADE my day.. guess u had to be there to get the full effect....hahaha ohh man. aright lots of history hw.. but after that i am doneeee :) thats my only hw biacchh but theres alot of it.
im going to leave u with another priceless quote from the day:
"celcius...is that like canadian?" hahahahah you had to be there
MWAH
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| Honestly now |
[12 Jan 2004|06:21pm] |
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i am so done. beyond done. correction i was done long ago. friendship.. what the hell does that word mean? because honestly... very few people know. i have in the new year been involved with so much absolute bullshit and i am so sick of it. i am going to say this once again because obviously the message has not gotten through everyone's heads yet... if you have a problem or any concern with me... take it up with ME... and if i ask you about it... dont lie to me because i will almost always find out. like i said in a past entry "the new jill is someone youll learn to hate" and well.. i think for alot of people thats proving true. i think the fact that hey.. im not putting up with bullshit and being pushed around and all passive and shit is finally showing some people heyyy jills not as easygoing as we thought she was. and voicing my opinion has gotten me involved in drama but you know what... i honestly dont care because i'm not going to sit back and keep my mouth shut anymore.
i am very blessed to have many friends. that sounds conceited i no but well you know what.. you hear what you wanna hear. but one particular group of my friends and you know who you are because you are most likely the ones reading my lj.. has been involved in so much drama that it beats days of lives x 10. and you know what i do understand that friends have drama..but this is like... therapy-needed drama. i am so absolutely hurt at the fact that people will say that they have no problem wiht me and go talk shit about me or other people behind our/their/my back(s).. like really come on we're not in second grade. you should have grown up enough by now to be able to confront people and if nto say it to their face atleast say it online/over the phone.. like come on this is second grade BULLSHIT. "ohh im not mad at youuu" and then blahblahblah ohh shes so sketchy ohh what are theyy doing oh its suspicious honestly its BUUUUUUULLLLSHITTTTTTTTT! and ur gonna be like ohh is she talking about me? deep down in ur heart you know if i am... you ALL know i dont like to start shit but right now.. if this starts shit then im glad because atleast one of us has the balls (yes THE BALLS) to say somethin about what the fuck is goin on. friends? i dont know if you can have friendships without trust.... :-\
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Today --> Good day.. went to North Rockland and saw Joe Billy and Ryan..... me and julia had so much fun.... HEY SARA EVEN THE BLACKBOARDS ARE BLACK HAHHAHAHAH...woww we walk into school to GUNS like whoa... im nto gonna bother typin all the funny stuff up here... it was just too funny.
i will leave it at that.
TWO HOUR DELAY.. wowww and jackie i am sorry for waking u up i wont call u anymore :) lol . and a new thing-- if we have a delay ill put it on my voicemail and turn my phone off because if i EVER get that many calls everrr again about a delay/snowday/w/e i will honestly hurt you. cya
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| my precioussssss |
[10 Jan 2004|11:39pm] |
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today was fun... i got woken up @ 8:49 bc my phone rang *ahem ahem* but its all good i was gonna get up eventually anyway. i chilled out until like 2:30 and then left to meet tom @ cinema 6. yeah i bought my ticket and the guy was weird he was like "6.50 for lord of the rings at 4 pm" so i give him a 10 and he gives me change hes like here's your change 3.50 for lord of the rings at 4 pm and he kept repeating it i was like yeahhh. we went into the pet shop and i got to hold a dog hehee it was so cute... but there was this little kid who was like tryin to get me to buy this other dog that was so ugly.. hes like THIS ONES FOR SALE TOO im like yeahhh i know thanksand then he kept following us around the store haha oh yeah the birds love me hahaha they all said in "i love you" and "hello" to me and then when tom came they wouldnt talk to him. hahah yeah we walked around everywhere and then went into cinema 6 lol we smuggled in my water and my hands were cold from being outside and wet from my water bottle bc it was retarded and i handed the guy my ticket and it was all wet and he was so grossed out it was hilarious. so yeah we played video games and i think i trust tom driving now hahaha so yeah we went into the theater and there were little kids and old people and we saw the old people kiss (ewwwww deja vu of somethings got to give). yeahh lord of the rings was good! i love jax.. she tells me that gollum is scary.. and she totally FORGETs to tell me about the spider... haha nottt cool but its all good lol. so yeah the movie was a little confusing but tom was patient and explained everything to my stupid questions... and lets just say we found the realllll message and meaning of lord of the rings.... and how its some sort of gay porn flick.. mhmmm.. those of you that THINK you know frodo oh baby you have nooo idea.hehe. so yeah the movie was long too. after the movie.. 3 and 1/2?? or so hours later... we left and it was already dark and even colder out lol we walked all the way to roccos to find that it was packed... and we decided to walk back to new city pizza.. and walkin back i realized i coulda asked rocco for a table bc he knows me but oh well.. yeah in new city pizza we ran into courtney sara and joe came later on.. i ran into afew ppl from school... it was fun.. ohh yeah but there was some creepy guy sittin behind us idk he was freakin me out. then i drove myself n tom over to ariels house and we chilled with her.. we played ping pong whcih i admit that im a tad sped-like at but then we met ariels sister n her friends theyr soo funny. yeah then we all slept together (threesome oh mann you're jealous now) hahah.. maybe THATS why im so exhausted right now.
yeahh tomorrow i have to type a MINIMUM 4 page english paper... due monday.. and then i think im chillin with najely and idk what else.. aright later kiddos.
oh yeah and let me make an announcement right here right now... if you have anything to say ... just say it to me, save yourself the trouble and the drama lol <3 u all
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| how i find all these surveys idk |
[09 Jan 2004|06:08pm] |
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I... survey
I see: my computer screen
I need: a hug
I want: a cookie
I have: awesome friends
I wish: i lived in california
I love: everyone
I hate: rumors
I miss: stuart
I fear: heights
I feel: happy
I hear: trapt headstrong
I smell: my abercrombie and fitch perfume
I crave: chicken
I search: for love
I wonder: how im gonna write this paper
I regret: giving my heart away too easily
LAST TIME YOU....
Smiled? when i made fun of helen keller haha sry kids
Laughed? 5 min ago
Cried? when *sum1* broke my heart
Bought something? today... water
Danced? i always dance
Were sarcastic? today
Kissed someone? yesterday
Watched your favorite movie? yesterday
Had a nightmare? i dont have those
LAST....
Last book you read: bread givers (for school kids chill)
Last movie you saw: somethings gotta give? (it was gross) orrr a movie ive seen many times.. the ring
Last song you heard: milkshake song
Last thing you had to drink: snapple
Last time you showered: This morning
Last thing you ate: a deli sandwich
DO YOU...
Smoke? nope
Do drugs? nah
Sleep with stuffed animals? no
Live in the moment? sometimes...
Have a dream that keeps coming back? nope
Play an instrument? yes well i used to play the piano and the flute hehe dork
Believe there's life on other planets? no
Remember your first love? yeah
Read the newspaper? yeah
Have any gay or lesbian friends? uhh... theres afew questionable ones... lolllllll
Believe in miracles? yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? nope
Consider yourself tolerant of others? i guess
Consider love a mistake? depends
Like the taste of alcohol? i like alcohol.
Have a favorite candy? hate it
Have any secrets? yes
Have any pets? no
DO YOU...
Do well in school? yeah...
Go to or plan to go to college?plannin on it awwwww we're graduating so sooooon hahaha
Talk to strangers who instant message you? depends
Wear hats? yes very rarely tho
Have any piercinngs? nope
Have any tattoos? nope
Hate yourself? sometimes
Collect anything? college sweatshirts
Have a best friend? i have alot
Like your handwriting? no u cant read it
Have any bad habits? afew
Care about looks? yeah i do.. sorry lol
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| roaaach (insert scream here) |
[09 Jan 2004|02:25pm] |
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today was such a great friday... oh man. lol. well except that this morning me and my mom got in an argument but its all goood.. shit happens. so my outfit was so cute! heheee (thanks to choi-nessss) i wore a black l/s shirt with jeans and white steve maddens with this blue trucker hat that says "pancake house our hot stacks keep em comin back... mmm mmm good" hehehe its so cute and i had the eyeliner on... mhmmm i was worrrkin it hahaha oor not. yeah writers was fun i had breakfast with sara again :D she bought me a blueberry muffin (my favorite) ahhh scoreee! I loveeee yoooou! lol. thankyou so much :). period 2 i go to latin and... HES ABSENT! yesss mr d was absent for the first time the entire year i was speechless... so we had a sub and i basically sat there and texted ppl the entire time until me and brittany decided to walk around in teh hall which i was stupid and left my phone in my jacket in class and which mike decided oooo im gonna play with.. and he started texting ppl and cursing ppl off and yeahh i had to go apologize to alot of ppl lol so if u got a messed up text from me today.. it prob wasnt me and prob was mike, yeahhh sorry bout that guys. in the hall to english im hangin with choi and leona and we walk leona to her locker cuz we have time.. so we're there and seth comes over and he says somethin to leona.. and at this point leona is kneeling down to get stuff from her locker when suddenly she jumps back and screaaams so we thought ohh seth tickled her... but then shes like no JEN UR STUPID ROAAACHHHH and me and jen look down and theres a roach about to climb on jens shoe and we screamed sooooooooo loud and jumped literally in 1 jump across the hall.. and everyone stopped and was lookin at us cuz we were buGGGGGING outtt.. ohh shizzzz. lol. yeah been lookin @ the ground wherever i went today. so english we finished this play i love that class its hilarious but i have a hugeee essay due for it monday grr. math was as boring as ever but whats funny is how badly i suck up to her at the most random times and she buys into it... lol suck up mhmmmmmm... :) chem sucked it was so boring except for random times that me and dani were histerical @ making fun of ppl hehhehe we do that alottt. lol not gonna lie thats how we get through teh class. i go to health..... yeaaahh mr h defff freaks me out... and durign movies he always sits behind me.. i always thought ok he wants to sit in the back of the class to watch everyone but no... he moves his seat directly behind me.... its a lil sketchhyy lol. oh yeah so hahaha funny story and gross story we're sittin there in health and this girl next to me goes "oh shit" and me and jeremy turn around and we're like what.. and she has her tongue pierced and the little metal ball on the top of her piercing well she swallowed it lol so she ran to the bathroom and took out her bellybutton ring, washed it, and put that in her tongue (GRRRRRROSSSS) yeahhh gagworthy. history... had another sub (Woohoo!!) had to copy a page of notes but after that i just sat there somewhat talking to briana and texting ppl / playing games on my phone. then spanish we had another sub... yeahh we had a wkst to do and then me and jul caught up withe achothers lives lol it was fun and we both realized how perved out we really are hahahah. (insert angel here) hahah jk yeah jul we're worse than we seem lol. its true. yess so the total ? THREE SUBS .. i repeat THREE SUBS in ONEEE DAY !!!! oh ma goddddd. yeah today was great. tonight i have to to tutor from 7-8 but then koby is coming over after that and we're gonna chill ohhh man havent chilled w koby in soo long like good old days hahah.
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[08 Jan 2004|06:23pm] |
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im so mad i was going to the movies friday night with koby... but now i cant go to that because i have to tutor. honestly, when i first signed up for the job i didnt think it would rule my life as much as it has but next year im soo not tutoring as much. grr., who spends their friday night stuck tutoring?? i do. and i dont even get outta it til like 8 pm!! im sorry koby :-( . maybe we can do something from 8 til idk when... like catch another movie or just chill or somethin. im seein lotr this weekend... sooo excited even though jax was tellin me gollum is one scary dude lol. i get to have breakfast again with sara tomorrow morning ::score:: because we have no life hahah. i definitely failed my latin test today... but its all good. yeahh i wasnt feelin good today, i was tryin to get my mom to let me go home which she was gonna do up until i told her i had to stay for gym period 1 and then she was all like fine then ur stayin in school. (bc she works like an hour or so away) so then when i realized that i didnt have to be in gym i was mad lol but i stayed the day. i went to the nurse during english and the nurse had me translating stuff for her it was so funny. ohh yeah and she had me layin down in the back in btwn football players. and theyr so big and im so not lol. but i didnt mind ;) hehehe hahahah. yeahh my midterm schedule pretty much SUCKS. the only day i have off is that friday. the rest of the days i have to come in.. grrr
my schedule:
mon 1/26-
eng 8:30-11:30
math 12:30-2:30
tues 1/27
eng 8:30-11:30 (DAMMIT IF I WASNT IN 11h I WOULDNT HAVE TO COME INNN!!! fuck this regents)
weds 1/28
History- 7:30-9:30
Chem 10-12
thurs 1/29- spanish 10-12
fri 1/30- nothing.. my only day off...
but the times are ridiculous cuz u cant sleep late.. you can sleep la-terrrr but not late... im getting up @ like 7 every morning except for weds cuz then i have to get up regular time.. grrr..
aright hw time... later kids
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| About today |
[07 Jan 2004|03:13pm] |
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me and sara had breakfast together :) I bought her a bagel from davids and we sat there with our bagels and talked during writers.. she brought in cookies haha ::scoree:: oh yeah so funny story.. since it was so freakin cold out today i wore a l/s shirt with a wool pretty sweater over it... and well wool can be itchy... i didnt think baout that until it started itching me in school... by period 2 i started breaking out in hives on my arms and my shoulder bc it was itching me that much so i had to go to the "bathroom" when really i stripped in the middle of the hall (not ocmpletely lol) and i switched my outfit.. yeah. def gonna fail my latin test tomorrow. math i called tom to help me with but he was in science lol o well. chem my phone kept vibrating and danis kept beeping and everyone else was like wtf. jesus asked me for my labs and he even offered to pay me but after the shit that happened last year im not doin that and also i dont have them on my computer anymore anyway lol. health mr h freaks me out hes always touching himself or winking its soo strange. must be my vodka hahah. i found out my midterm schedule unless they change it and it absolutely sucks... bc righ tnow the only day i have off is that friday. ughhhh. yeah insane amounts of hw tonight.. later kids
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| yet another survey |
[07 Jan 2004|02:26pm] |
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1*What time is it: 3pm
2*Todays Date: jan7
3*Full Name: jill alexandra matusiak
4*Gender: girl
5*Age: 15
6*Birthday: may4
7*Siblings(age,sex): kim 22
8*Parents: tina
9*Nieces: none
10*Nefews: none
11*School: chsn
12*School colors: purple n gold
13*Car: eclipse spyder
14*Car color: black
15*Eye color: hazel
16*Hair Color: blonde
17*Hair Length: mid-upper arm? lol im growin it out to "elbow length"
18* tan or pale: pale ... but i can get tan
19*Height: 5'5"
20*Skin(pale white,tan,dark,black): white
21*what are you wearing as of now: black l/s shirt jeans
22*Are you wearing make-up? no
23*Did you take a shower today? yes
24*Pets(names,kind): nada
25*What are you drinking right now? snapple
26*Do you smoke? no
27*If so, what do you smoke? nothing
28*Do you have a car, or is it your parents? img etting 1
29*Are you listening to music? yes
30*If so, what song, and who is it by? ... lose yourself eminem
31*What are your screen names? jbaby295
32*Crush: :x
33*Person you want to go out with: :x
34*Dating anyone? no
35*If so, who? no
36*How long? no
37*who asked who out? no
38*Are you in love? i gave up on love
39*Are you a virgin? yes
40*How far have you been with a guy/girl? pre-tty far
41*How far would you go just to be with the person you crushed? if a guys using me for ass then thats not cool... but if in that situation i want to go uhh far... i will
42*Are you a little devil, or a sweet little innocent ANGEL? devil
43*WHo's your best friend? i have a few
44*Why is she/he your best friend? they're honest
45*What's your perfect dream date like? dinner in nyc and a comedy club lol food and laughs= good
46*Who would it be with? :x
47*where would you go? nyc
48*What kind of music do you listen to? everythin
*************YES OR............NO ABOUT U*****************
49*Shy: i can be
50*Outgoing: somtimes
51*Ugly: nah
52*Pretty: im not too shabby hehe
53*Beautiful: eh... if i try i can be
54*Loveable: yes
55*Sensitive: yes
56*Nerdy: yeshhh haha
57*Geek: no
58*Playa: yessss awerd
59*Playa hata: yeah
60*Tall: i like to pretend im taller than what i really am
61*Short: no
62*Only Child: no
63*Cheated on a test: yes
64*Did someone else's homework: yes
65*let somone act like you on the phone: no
66*asked out your crush: ive never asked anyone out lol
67*Split up a relationship: yes
68*Drove a car: yes
69*Road a roller coaster: yes
70*Chickened out on a roller Coaster: no
71*Went to a concert: yes
72*Went to the beach: yes
73*Been to an Ocean: yes
74*Called your boyfriend a jerk: yes
75*Made fun of your best friend: lol.. yes
76*said you loved someone when you really didn't: :/ yea
77*Said you loved someone and you meant it: yes
78*Kissed someone: yes
79*WEnt out on a date, just you and him/her: yes
*********FAVORITES************
80*Color: blue
81*Flower: daisy
82*Car: ferrari
83*Drink: snapple or poland springs water
84*Day: fri
85*Song: hows it gonna be
86*CD: the eminem show
87*person: elise haha
88*Star: shaq
89*Actor: Ashton Kutcher
90*Actress: jennifer aniston
91*Movie: my big fat greek wedding
92*Singer(s): elvis
93*Rapper(s): Eminem
94*Boyfriend/Girlfriend: none
95*Music Video: jlo love dont cost a thing
96*Radio Station(s): i like alot
97*TV Show: comedy central presents
98*friend at school: a few
99*Animal(s): dog or emu
100*School(elementry,Jr High,High school): High school
101*Boy Name(s): chris, mike, joey, rob
102*Girl Name(s): julie, michele, destiny, hailey
103*pet Name(s): bacardi.. i will have a dog named bacardi in the future
**************Friends*********************
104*COOLEST CAR: leo defff hahah
105*BEST HOUSE: tara
106*SHORTEST TEMPER: not saying
107*MOST TALENT: jen
108*FUNNYEST TRACK RECORD: dani counterfeit money hahahh jk
109*WEIRDEST TASTE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: briana
110*ODDEST SENSE OF HUMOR: sara
111*DIRTYEST MIND: lauren
112*MOST UNUSUAL IDEAS: jax or i ususally do lol
113*CRUSH/BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: again NOT saying
114*IS THERE A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF THEM: So Into You by Fabolous and Tamia
115*DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR EX BF/GF: yea... i guess u can say that
116*BEST GIRL FRIENDS: not causing controversy
117*BEST GUY FRIENDS: not causing controversy
118*WHY ARE YOU SUCH GOOD FRIENDS, AND HOW DID YOU GET TO BE SUCH 119*GOOD FRIENDS: I've known em for a while...
120*COULD YOU TELL THEM ANYTHING: not all of em
121*WHY/NOT: its just that way... i have trust issues
122*DO YOU TRUST THEM: some
123*OUT OF ALL YOUR FRIENDS, WHO IS THE: ....
124*SHORTEST: aviva
125*TALLEST: kristyn
126*FUNNYEST: ariel
127*SWEETEST: sara
128*TRUSTED: jax
129*TRUSTING: court
130*ADVISER: meee
131*ADVISEE: jen
132*MOST PERFECT: lex
133*MOST INSECURE: not sayin i dont wanna be mean
134*SMARTEST: leona
135*DUMBEST/BLONDEST: me
136*HORNYEST: lauren
137*HONEST: sara
***************Which One??*****************
138*Car OR jeep: car
139*Sweet and ugly OR Rude and Hot: rude and hot
140*Tall OR short: tall
141*Long hair in the summer OR short hair in the winter: long hair
142*Bangs OR no bangs: no
143*hot,hairy chest guy OR ugly smooth chested guy: hot b/c it didn't specify how hairy... hehe
144*Soggy Bread OR Raw Meat: raw meat
145*Justin Timberlake with a bald head OR long hair: bald
146*Pringles OR DOritoes: Pringles
147*Scary Movie OR Romantic Movie: scary i liveee for scary movies
148*Dog OR Cat: dog
149*Fish OR Bird: fish
150*Sandles with socks or tennis shoes with no socks: tennis shoes w no socks
151*Shoes OR Sandles: sandles
152*Computer with no mouse OR Computer with no keyboard: no keyboard b/c the computer has an onscreen keyboard that you can click with your mouse ooo smart
153*Love OR LIke: love
154*HOtt Or Cute: BOTH!!!
155*Honest & Nerdy OR Liar & Popular: honest and nerdy loll
156*100 friends or 1 best friend: 100 friends
157*100 friends that lie all the time OR no friends: no friends
158*Hott boyfriend that never calls you OR Ugly Boyfriend that 159*calls you when you want him to: hot bf
160*Staple your tounge or Staple your Lip: uh? lip?
161*Long Gross nails Or no Nails at all: long
162*Food or drink: drink
163*Spinich OR Raw Fish: umm... spinach
164*Green Beans or Refried beans: green beans
165*computer with no speakers & napster OR a computer with 166*speakers without napster: have speakers
167*Email or Mail: email
***************First reaction****************
168*Ugly: eww
169*Fat: werba
170*cute: dog
171*Hot: :x
172*Guyz: eyes
173*Jerks: suck
174*Girls: argue
175*friends: i dunno
176*Car: mine
178*Color: blue
179*wet: water
180*Plastic: barbie
181*hard: heh heh
182*soft: ok
183*watery: eyes
184*Silver: spoon
185*Fork: spork
186*Spoon: fork
187*Bowl: cereal
188*Plate: food
189*TV: show
190*Money: job
191*School: sucks
192*Crush: mhmmm
193*love: hurts
194*boyfriend:
195*girlfriend: (s)
196*Drink: alcohollllll
197*Swallow: heeheeeee
198*Suck: you
199*Blow: me
200*Outside: yes
201*Indside: yes
202*What time is it now?? 3:09pm
203*Did this Survey really annoy you?? eh... not really
204*Who do you hope fills this out? whoever wants to
205*Are you glad your done? i guess
206*DO you want more ?'s ??? not from this survey
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| what the hell is going on |
[06 Jan 2004|08:27pm] |
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"What are friends?
Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they're really your enemies, with secret identities
and disguises, to hide they're true colors
So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers
they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin"- Eminem
Yeah I think Eminem pretty much sums up what I'm thinking right about now. I am sooo sick of this drama. Someone was right when they said you're never done with the drama and when you think you're done it sucks you right back in again. It's true. I try my best to stay outta fights and to get along with everyone. I used to let people walk all over me and I used to just keep my mouth shut just to avoid a fight. This year i stopped doing that and ever since i stopped that all ive been involved with was drama... so i dont know what the hell i'm supposed to do. Sit here like i used to and keep my mouth shut just to avoid fights?? yeahh i guess im gonna have to go back to doing that.
So much absolute bullshit has happened in the new year already.. ands its only the sixth day of the new year... yeah thats what i thought too. As soon as one problem ends and everyone starts gettin along for a couple of HOURS somethin else happens and the drama starts ALL over again and im so sick of it. I've always tried to be a good friend to everyone, even if u pissed me off. i've always kept my promises except for those rare times when i had to break them which is once or actually no two times... in total. and most importantly if you tell me something that you dont want anyone else to know... I DONT TELL THEM. i dont care how mad they get... they learn to respect that about me and i can honestly say i know more about other peoples lives than i know about my own but you want to know the key to friendships? its not jokes and secrets... its keeping your mouth shut thats how after all these years ive barely gotten into any fights because i've kept my mouth SHUT and i'm gonna keep on doing that because the second i tell someone confidentially what i think they turn around and tell people and im so sick of it. friendship is supposed to be based on trust. you trust me not to tell your shit which i dont and in turn if i trust you you think that you'd do the same thing... but you dont. People Lie. People are NOT good friends. When we become friends I dont ask for much. I ask for u to be honest with me and to keep my trust and to once in awhile make me laugh.. THATS IT. the second people start lying to save their own butts or the second people BRREAKKKK MY TRUSTTTTTT is when our friendship is over. honestly this past week or so i've seen how things are as "the new jill" and i think im just gonna go back to the way i was and just not talk to anyone about anything bc atleast with that way i wasnt involved in any unnecessary drama. people act like they know the true meaning of friendship, but when it comes down to the phrase "just tell me i wont tell her you told me" they dont. because true friends dont break promises. true friends dont break your trust. true friends dont lie.
annoyed,
jill
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| first day back |
[05 Jan 2004|07:27pm] |
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well since i missed classes thurs and fri lol even tho i wasnt technically absent i left like 10-15 min into period one each day and went home and slept lol i had alota work to do in school. i came in early and talked on the phone to my friend insanely early in the morning. and then i went to first period and saw abuncha ppl including saraaaaaaaaa xtina and ariel. anthony broke his collarbone ouuuch hahaha he looks so sheshxy with his suspender-like casts/bandages hahaha. me and ariel wrote a funny poem and i wrote a serious but turned out tobe a hilarious poem cuz of the last line. shadyyyyynesssss chika chika hahaha xtina. then i had latin and i saw briiiiittany haha shes so funny. english wer reading another play..not fun. but i love that class cuz its just too funny. math... yeahhhhh i made up the test in class... so i missed actual class so i have no idea what do for the hw and thats what im gonna tell her... even though i still ahve to do a math sheet from b4 vacation due tomorrow lol. chem was boring as ever yeahh she decides to give us a test tomorrow and tell us today..retard. history was boring but i was one of the only ppl that knew what we were talkin about. haha jeremy and annoying mike got in a fight in suchys class and he sent them tot he office and i think they have inhouse haha. oh yeah cant forget health straaange teacher. yeah mr h is a strange guy. spanish was boring but eh i know wat wer talkin about so i just sit there lol. i stayed after for clubs and to make up suchys test --- it took me over an hour to do his test.. crazyness. yeah i left around 4:30 and i got a sandwich @ subway and in it was a letter... it was grosssss and freaky lol. then i finally came home and started doin hw and i still ahve so much to do and to study too.. ugh and im so tired and theres 4 more days left of this oyyy. oh yeah and i need the midterm schedule lol so if any of u happen to have it... lemme no :) thanks. yeahhh my moms goin midterm nazi on me.... or trying to but i dont have a sched so i told her i cant study yet lol. this might be my last weekend to chill b4 midterms grrr. aright later kids.
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[05 Jan 2004|05:56am] |
my name is]: jill
[in the morning i am]: so tired that im hyper its weird.
[all i need is]: my friends. water. music. lol
[im afraid of]: heights
Have you ever:
1. KISSED YOUR COUSIN: no
2. RAN AWAY: yea
3. PICTURED YOUR CRUSH NAKED: nah
5. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART: yea
6. BEEN IN LOVE: yeah
7. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yeah
9. BROKEN A BONE: no but i got a concussion lol
10. DRANK ALCOHOL: yes
11. LIED: yes
12. CRIED IN SCHOOL: once when i was little
WHICH IS BETTER:
13. COKE OR PEPSI: coke
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: sprite
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: flowers
18. QUIET OR LOUD: depends on the situation
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: both
21. TALL OR SHORT: tall
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: eyes...smile
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: alex hahaha jk
25. WORST THING THEY COULD DO: CHEAT!
THE LAST TIME:
26. SHOWERED: this morning
27. HAD SEX: havent yet
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: yesterday afternoon.. oh man gonna get comments on this one now lol
WHAT IS:
29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: my heart necklace
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: theres afew i hate more ppl than hate me..its weird
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: well since its like 6 am...listenin to music? idk nothin good has really happened yet today
FAVORITES:
32. COLOR: blue
36. JUICE: hawaiian punch
37. CAR: i like anything fast enough to do somethin stupid in
38. ICE CREAM: cant have it :(
39. HOLIDAY: channukah
40. SEASON: spring
WHO:
43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: all of my friends
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: ev
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM:no one lol sry
46. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: guess
47. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: hmmmm
48. HAS IT EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: Guyssssss
DO YOU EVER:
49. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: no
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: i did once to prove someone wrong :p
52. SAVE E-MAILS: nope
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: there r times....
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: nah
55. CRY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: yes
BEST:
56. COLOGNE: axe
57. PERFUME: abercrombie and fitch signature perfume
58. KISS: hehehehe
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: dinner in nyc
60. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: dont be so f*ckin suspicious hahah
HAVE YOU:
61. Fallen for your best friend?: no
62. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: yeah
63. Been rejected?: no...unless ur talkin about elise
64. Been in love?: yes
65. Been in lust?: yes
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used?: yeah
69. Been cheated on?: yes :\
70. Been kissed?:yes
71. Done something you regret?: yes
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
72. You touched?: anyone from lsa tnight lol
73: You talked to: my mom
74. You hugged?: ariel
75. You instant messaged?: idk too many last night
77. You had sex with?: no one yet
78. You yelled at? no comment
79. You laughed with?: tom
81. Who told you they loved you?: no one :( everyone hates me now lol
DO YOU:
82. Color your hair?: blonde
83. Have tattoos?: nah
84. Have piercings?: nothing... tooo chicken to get my ears re-pierced (they closed up)
85. Have a boyfriend/grlfriend/both?: no
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| babysitting |
[04 Jan 2004|11:55am] |
yeah yesterday was fun. i studied oh man i know! how can it get better than that? i just basically chilled for the whole day and talked on the phone... my great aunt came over and my cousin..... my aunt has the mostttt annoying voice you ever heard even tom said that and he heard it over the phone haha. yeh and then at night i was tryin to figure out what to do and then tom was gonna come over and ariel was gonna come over when she was done with the movie shes shooting and then we were gonna go visit jax but then tom couldnt get a ride and ariel ahd to do hw so i went over to the terrors to save jackie by myself :\ lol but then ariel came later which was fun she saw how spoiled and insane the kids are o my god lol. yeahh today i have the photo thing w alex and then afterwards i think wer meeting up with tom billy and ariel. lets see wat happens. lol
laterrr
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| Bennigans |
[02 Jan 2004|11:22pm] |
well today was fun... ariel was supposed to come over @ 3... but she ended up coming over around 4:30 lol. but its all good. then we chilled til 6:30 and went over to bennigans (to make sure the tables were all set up and shizz). a whole list of the ppl at bennigans: joe tom lauren kristina aviva steph court jax ariel me billy. yeahhh pimpin kyle didnt come so no, i still didnt get to meet the kid!! grrr. o well lol. yeah the service beyond sucked tonight. like usually its a lil bit better but tonight it just plain out suckedddd. then everyone left and me ariel xtina lauren tom billy and joe sat there figuring out the $ and then we finally left and we walked xtina and lauren to cinema 6. yeahh then we all piled into ariels car which is always fun lol and we went back to ariels and alex came over and we played some ping pong fooseball/foosball (not exactly sure how to spell it) and then we played basketball. okay okay okay.. the teams: (GIRLS) jill alex ariel (BOYS) joe billy tom and we kickkeeed their buttttts (ohh yeahhh) hahahh it was so much fun.
aright later kiddo.
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| New Years Resolution |
[02 Jan 2004|12:14am] |
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everyone else is writing about new years resolutions so i figured hell why not write one also? I am letting go all grudges from last year (like everyone else is). I'm not letting people take advantage of me this year like i did last year because it just led to unnecessary pain and drama that if i wasnt such a trusting person and passive person then i never would have gotten hurt. its going to take a while for me to trust new people now but u know what it will be for the better because if its worth it then the person will put up the time to gain my trust. im determined to get the group back together and i hope that they just let all of this go, please guys me and ariel were talking and honestly, we're asking you, and you know that we never ask you guys for ANYTHING AT ALL, really we dont, please, for US if not for anything else, just help bring it back to the way it used to be.. id ont care if we haev to get everyone together til 4am to talk things out, just please? cuz not only can we not deal with this unnecessary bs and drama we know its gettin all of u upset also. so I ask you, Please?? This year i'm going to be openminded, well more openminded about certain things. im really gonna try and i have been trying for the past week or so (its not much so far but its somethin) yeah. happy new year all :)
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| happy new years |
[01 Jan 2004|11:58am] |
HAPPYYYYY NEW YEARS!! well my new years was certainly uhh eventful, parties.... and saras party was by far the best because its the only one where i knew everyone! hahah hmm who was there... jackiee with her cowboy hat (yodelehoooo), ryan with his ankle (feel better), court (emu noise, ilysm), aleeex (our handshake thingy), ariel (what what what ..car motion..), tom (i finally got to see u!), joe (wow, you talked, alot!), daph (ahhhh i missed u), sara (ur party was great u deserve soo many ghetto props x 1000000), kristina (how are u my dear?), lauren (lesssssbiaaannns), nigeli/nijeli (im sry i dont know hwo to spell ur name :\, butttttttt we ARE GOING to as many rap concerts as possible, THERES FINALLY SOMEONE IN THE GROUP BSIDES G-RIZZLE and ME that likes Rap ::SCOREEEE::), steph (hello jamoneizzle), dani (drunk? 2 sips! hahahah), AVIVA (ur drrrruuunk), Sus (are ur eyes really green? or blue?) cliff and horneenee (spoke what 2 words 2 u guys? lol enough said.) did i forget anyone?? if i did I LOVEEE YOOOU ANYWAY
happy new year all of you. :) heeheee
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| lasttt night |
[31 Dec 2003|10:59am] |
last night was soooo fun i was so happy to see everyone well no not everyone was there but soo happy to see sara jax and court and of course MY LOVEEEEEEE ALEX haevnt seen alex in FOREVER....theee illest girrrrls in the worrld. we went to bennigans and they made us wait like 20 minutes bc the damn guy couldnt count.. .how many are there 4??? FIIIIIiIVEEEEEEEEEEE.
Four???
FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE. ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE. hahahah. and he only brought 4 menus too hahahahahh damn mexicans. OHHH MAN OHHH MAN did not just say that myself, did I? hahaha :)
then we walked to blockbuster saw someone who reminded us of someone and we got a good laugh lol. we rented mall rats and the tobemeister came, and picked up sara. then me jax court and alex went to alexs to get her stuff w her and i saw her Dog awwww i love it! and then we went to jaxs.... and i saw my lOVERRRRRR my TRUE LOVER who i yodeled and sang to hahahahah ELISEEEE IS MY BESTESTESTEST FRIEND IN WHOLE DAMN WORLD. but she wont marry me :( hahahahha. nah but its all good i got other ppl in mind :) lol. I LOVE YOU THOUGHH yodelelilililililileewhoooo! (my mating call...its a mexi thing) so we chilled and talked and hahhahah (thinkin of court's emu noise) and yeah we went to sleep around what.. 5?? yeah and my mom called my cell @ 8 and it was vibrating for like 20 min b4 i realized she called so ic aleld her back and i got her to come @ 10 instead of 9 am lol. but i got up @ like 9 anyway and hung with elise and danny and ate breakfast with them. i lovee jackies family lol :). yeah so today is NEW YEARS EVE BABBYYYYYYY heeeelllz! todays gonna kick ass. i came home showered and now im gettin ready.. im goin out with the fam... not exactly sure what we're doin but i know we're doin somethin... then goin to saras new years eve party tonight.. and then after the party im not exactly sure what im doin i think i might stop by another one, but im not sure. we'll see we'll see. WHAT I NEED OT BRING TO SARAS:
1. my cookiecake
2. movies
3. what was the third thing???
aright kiddo happy new year :) 2003 did have its ups and downs, but it was fun.
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| my friends |
[30 Dec 2003|05:12pm] |
I am in love with my friends! i love you guys so ridiculously much that without you i'd die. you guys cheered me up last night outta i dont even knoww what i was in. some sorta out there sorta thing.... yeah. thankyoou soooooo much,
all my love... leaving me with one question....summer crew?
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| Good Charlotte- Day that I die |
[29 Dec 2003|05:49pm] |
One day I woke up
I woke up knowing
Today is the day I will die
Cashdogg was barking
Went to the park
And enjoyed it one last time
I called my mother
Told her Iloved her
And I begged her not to cry
I wrote a letter
That said I'd miss her
And I signed that goodbye
you know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die
Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone, but I feel fine
We took a drive and
We drove through DC
To see the places we lived
Long conversations
We talked of old friends
And all the things that we did
The summer nights
Drunken fights
mistakes we made
Did we live it right?
You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die
Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone but I feel just fine
you know the happiest day of my life,
I know the happiest day of my life,
I swear the happiest day of my life,
is the day that I die
Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone, but I feel fine
Did I live it right?
I hope I lived it right
Did I live it right?
Did I live it right?
I hope I lived it right
I know I lived it right
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